toxxickisses

Hey all!
I have created my new  DA account.
For now, I\'ve decided to keep this one as well, if not simply to preserve my favs, then to remain in some kind of distant part of the internet.
I will be posting everything new, journals and photographs (as well as a few old favorites) on my new account.
Very rarely will I update  or even touch this one from now on.
Thank you for you understanding,
and if you don\'t mind, follow me on my new account: [link]
Sincerely yours,
Soph

Hello to all!
I don't know who will read this but I write for the sake of getting myself out there.
In recent news, I just got accepted to my college of choice in PHOTOGRAPHY! On top of that, I am currently in a cooperative teaching class.
This has permitted me to join up to a business to learn the process of "real life living". I chose a small photography studio
(Vanessa Dewson Photography & Design, in Ottawa Ontario) and I am very happy to say that I am enjoying it immensely.
I love learning the technical aspects of the art. Sadly, I knew absolutely none of them. So this will improve my love as well as my work.
I do eventually plan on launching my own business when i graduate (or along the day, depending on how things go)
I also plan to begin a Facebook and Twitter page for some fans of my work (if any of you exist that is) fairly soon.
So look out for those links and hey, while you're at it, if you really enjoy my work (muuuuuch more new things to come your way btw)
show it to someone! I do answer all notes and will answer all posts and those things on social networks.
I may be dreaming big but that is who I am and I will NEVER give up
I will be writing more frequently, sometimes about nothing, sometimes about my deepest thoughts.
But I hope that you all can follow me on my journey to become the photographer I aspire to be.
Thank you for listening and I will talk to you later
Soph

Hey everyone!
So I know It's been a while since i written or posted anything but truth is, its been insanely busy. As my last year of high-school I have so many things to do! My exams are coming up and i just finished applying for college and now have to work on submitting my portfolios to the programs. On top of that I do like to get in some time with friends and my boyfriend, who by the way i've spent over a year with now

So many things are changing this year and it kind of scares me but that's okay I know it'll turn out alright. There is one thing I'd like to ask of you who follow me. I wish to lose weight but can't seem to be able to stick to it, if you've got any suggestions i'd gladly take the help. Other then that, everything's going pretty well. I do realize that this journal is quite pointless unlike my others, but i felt the need for an update and to let you guys know that I'm not dead haha.

well I am off to study,
sincerely yours,
Soph

Hey everyone,

just an update on how I've been. There are more pictures to be added soon, I have to add my name to them when I have the time and then they will be uploaded. Lots more to come Starting a fall project. from September 23 to December 22 I will take a picture every day. Autumn days.

This is senior year and there are so many things to think about and to do before I go out into the scary world. I honestly don't know how I'm going to do it, but I know I can. There's a determination that's been boiling inside of me and I can't explain it. I know that at times, we have to stop and smell the roses and I've been doing that a lot. But there comes a time when a choice has to be made and I'm ready to make it.

There are other things in my life then responsibility and getting mature. My boyfriend and I hit the 9 months and are loving it. Sometimes I feel so engulfed by him that nothing else exists. And I love it. A couple weeks ago, i brought him to a forest that meant a lot to me. It was a place where my friend and I used to go to get away from things. But he died from a brain tumor a year and a half ago. Although my boyfriend didn't know where I was taking him, I felt safer with him around. It was no longer a place of abandoned memories and lost friendship. He now knows about it and I want to take him again. Part of me knows that I'm going to break down, but part of me wants to. I can't help but think that maybe my friend is going to show up, in spirit or a memory and that I'll be able to let go. But I know that letting go completely is going to be painful. I want him to see me at my worst and at my best. There's nothing I wouldn't show him. My love only grows daily.

just some ramblings of a teenage girl. Thanks for reading and supporting my work, it means the world.
sincerely yours,
Soph

I had a discussion today with one of my close friends that got me thinking. She believes that when it comes down to the bare minimum, we are always left alone. This is not necessarily a bad thing, she says, for a moment we feel close and connected to someone, but eventually, the moment dissipates and we are left with just a simple memory. Then we are on our own. I'm inclined to agree, but the though of being alone forever makes me angst slightly. Surely those memories must mean something? I feel as though the few people who are truly close to me, who've seen me in my true and most naked nature, have a way of making me feel complete, a sense of happiness if you will. I believe that the memories left over from those moments, may they be from people who have passed or people who you haven't spoken to in ages, even to the people you talk to daily, those moments are what create the memories that will last forever. The recollection of a certain time can be more powerful in itself then the actual moment. I believe that we can  harness determination to be come and be who we want to be through these people and memories. They enable us to become who we are. It's not the destination, but rather the path leading towards it that make you who you are when you finally get there. I believe that we are alone in some moments, we can change that with a simple memory and fix that, whether its a happy; infuriating; hilarious or sad memory, it is still a connection between two or more people who you depend on.
That is my rambling of the day, and I shall be off with those last words.
Sincerely yours,
Soph